When We're Ready For God and Jesus...

I beli​eve that we are all equipped with the 'feeling' that God and Jesus are real; whether or not we choose to believe it, is a personal decision and does not make it 'not true'  if we don't believe it.

We think that we have to be all cleaned up before paying more attention to God - I did too...Nope.




(note: this happens gradually)

Mark 2:16, 17

But when the teachers of religious law who were Pharisees saw him eating with tax collectors and other sinners, they asked his disciples, "Why does he eat with such scum"? 

When Jesus heard this, he told them, "Healthy people don't need a doctor - sick people do.  I have come to call not those who think they are righteous but those who know they are sinners.

My Journey

I don't remember anything before I was 8 years old, 49 years ago, and one of my earliest childhood memories was that one of my friend's family took me to church with them.  My feelings about this as a child, with really no specific information about God and Jesus, was simply that I felt comfortable going to church with them, singing and listening to the Pastor.

I grew up in Foster and Group Homes from the age of 8 years old to 16 years old.  During that time, at the age of 10, I was taken to church in only one of the homes I was in for about 2 years; this was a good experience where I liked going to church and learned some information about God and Jesus.

The next time I had any experience going to church was when I was raising my first 2 children around 1989 and we kept trying to find a church we liked and I didn't really feel completely comfortable in any of them; so I began watching some Christian Speakers on TV like Joyce Meyers,

Charles Stanley, Billy Graham, TD Jakes and Michael Youssef. What they would speak about seemed to be reasonable and taught me about God and Jesus from The Bible which helped me 

to make my life better.  

My belief at this time was that God and Jesus were just 'up there' and that if we were decent human beings we would go to heaven when we die.  I liked God the same as the next person and felt that church goers ' put 'a little too much butter on this whole God thing ' although when I would watch them at church, they seemed to be content and happy where I did not have that feeling at that time.

 In 1990, I felt God tell me to start paying more attention to Him.  I said..."ok, but can I have just 5 more years of partying?"....oh yes, I did say that and it did not prove to be to my benefit.  I did not party that much, just go out dancing and drinking a little, but I thought I had to quit all of that, first before paying more attention to God and Jesus.

Well, God gave me 11 more years of partying and my life was one disaster after another with spurts of peace and happiness.

It wasn't until 2001 when I hit 'rock bottom' where I had mentally and emotionally wore myself out trying to ' DO IT MY WAY '.  I woke up one morning to go to work and I honestly could barely move.  At this time, my last son was 1  1/2 years old.  In my pajamas, I took my son to the sitter's house and I went to my job and told them I could not work right now, that I did not know what was wrong with me; I wanted them to see what bad shape I was in.

I had never experienced anything like this before; I had always had lots of energy, multi-tasked always, and usually had 2 or 3 jobs; I did not think I would ever be normal again.  I ended up on disability for about 6 months.  I had to give my son to a relative to care for him.  During most of this time all I could do was lay in bed and watch TV wondering if I would ever get well again.  I did not want to hear or see anything negative and when I would change the TV channels, it seemed the only non-negative programs that were on was Joyce Meyers and Charles Stanley; I said to myself,

" really? ".  I watched them for a minute or two and not only did I think they were talking to me!  but from that moment on it just made a lot of sense what they would say.

Now, the whole Jim Jones news thing freaked me out in 1978 so before I started really believing what any Christian Speakers were saying, I went straight to THE BIBLE to make sure what they were saying was true.

I found that what those two Christian Speakers were saying was true, that they did in fact take it from THE BILE, and so I continued to watch and learn from the lessons on their broadcasts for the next 6 months.  My life ended up being better in that 6 months than it had been the previous 24 years!

JUST FOR THE RECORD...I compared many Bibles and they do say the same thing only worded differently, like paraphrasing because of the different ways we used to and do talk now.

I still drank a little in the evening, I never drank too much.


After the 6 months I felt about 70% better and decided to get my son back and look for work instead of trying to stay on disability longer.

From that time on, I kept learning about God and Jesus daily by listening to many other 

Christian Speakers including Victory Outreach Pastors, Joel Osteen and TD Jakes, and going to different churches though I still preferred watching Christian TV and listening to Christian Radio better than going to church.  I do get to talk with other fellow Christians when the subject comes up in my daily life which is really exciting to see that other people know what I have discovered 

to be true too!

It took about 7 years before I felt like I had ' graduated ' from some of the stuff they would talk about.  I listen to even more Christian Speakers on 770 and 710 AM radio in my car when driving.  It took me about 2 years to feel completely better again.

Now, 17 years later, I am surprised how much I have ' graduated '  from most of what hear them preaching about now; though the reminders are always helpful and I will always have room for improvement.

The Bible I Like Best

The Holy Bible by Tyndale Publishers New Living Translation (NLT) Recommended by Billy Graham $15.99

(it's called a Gift Bible and has a summary paragraph (called Presentation Page) 

at the beginning of every Book)

google search: Gift Bible Tyndale NLT

search: Barns & Noble: Gift BIble Tyndale NLT

search: Tyndale Website: Gift Bible

(example of the summary paragraph (Presentation Page) for the Book of John in the New Testament:)

.....But these are written so that you may continue to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing in him you will have life.....about Christ - "the Word" - the unique Son of God - who became human and made God the Father known to us.

John 21:24, 25

This disciple (John) is the one who testifies to these events and has recorded them here.  And we know that his account of these things is accurate.  Jesus also did many other things.  If they were all written down, I suppose the whole world could not contain the books that would be written.

So...When We're Ready For God and Jesus...

It's Easy...

...say this Prayer or one like it

Dear God,

I don't know if you are real or not so I am just going to try you out and see what happens.  They say you are our Father who created us and our world; 

that Adam and Eve disobeyed you and caused us to be separated from you; that Jesus is your son born from the virgin Mary who you sent to the earth to be sacrificed for us being sinful so that we can have a relationship with you again; 

that we will still be sinners for now though we are to always try and do good; that a small sin is the same as a big sin; that if we ask you to forgive us for our sins and come into our life, you will and help us to do good and have a better life; 

that one day you will make this world all good again with no bad in it anymore; that those of us who choose to love and respect you will spend eternity with you in the new only good world...so...

please forgive me dear God for all of my sins, come into my life and help me to do good...I believe that you are our Father who created us and the world that we live in...

I believe that Jesus died for our sins and that one day you will make this world all good again for those who love and respect you.

Thank you dear God

In Jesus' name this I pray to you, Amen

There is really no other way to truly be close to God and Jesus unless you are listening to or reading about them everyday.

One of the speakers I listen to said this:  "Being in a relationship with God and Jesus is the same as any relationship; you are not going to get married and say "Ok Babe, I'll see you every Sunday" and expect to have a quality relationship with that person".

When we are not in a daily relationship with God and Jesus, it leaves us to fight our own battles with no help from God and we are open to Satan's full influence on us only. 

When we are in a daily relationship with God and Jesus, it helps us fight our daily battles and gives us extra protection from God from harm and limits Satan's attacks on us.

Take Care and

God Bless You Always